Sajani shriji mujane sanbharya re, haide harakh rahyo ubharay

aasvad : premibhakt kavi premanand svami shrijimaharajana viyoge virahakula thai antarana aavegane jayare khali nathi shakata tyare aemani virahavyathane vacha fute chhe ane rachay chhe aek karun prashasti gan ! ‘sajani shriji mujane sanbharya re , haide harakh rahyo ubharaya. nene aansuni dhara vahe re, virahe manadun vyakula thaya.’ shrijimaharajani virahani vasami vyathane halavi karava kavi ae hradayasth murtine sanbhare chhe, ae murti sathe sankalayeli saghali chijone sanbhare chhe. ane ae badhane sanbhari teni sathe jadayeli shrijimaharajani cheshtaone potana smartijalano ardhy arpe chhe. shrijina smaranamatrathi j kavina haiye harakh ubharay chhe. pan biji j pale virahana vastav bhan sathe j kavina netre aansuoni dhara vahe chhe ane aemanun antar vyakula bane chhe. virahi premi dvara anubhavati dvividh bhavormione kaviae be j panktiman kevi chotadar abhivyakti aapi chhe ! virahani aagane antaraman j samavine kavi fari harismaranaman j manane vale chhe . sundar murti shri maharajani re, sundar kamala sarikhan nen ; sundar karatan latakan hathanan re, sundar amart sarakha vena. prabhu svarupa-smaranani sathe sathe prabhuno rasasharngar tatha cheshtao pan kavine anayase yad aavi jay chhe. ‘sada shvetanbar shriji dharata r...’ shrijimaharaj motebhage shvet vastro j dharan karata hata, koik var bhaktona atyagrahane vash thaine anbar jarakasiya vastro paheratan. aavi sukshmatisukshm khasiyato pan premasakhi aa prasange bhulata nathi. ‘shrijimaharaja’ ni ‘sundara’, ‘murti’ na madhur smaran pachhi pan premanand svamini aatur aankhadi ae chhabina darshanani abhilasha zhankhya kare chhe. ‘ae chhabi jova talape aankhadi re, madhura vachan sanbhalava kan ; ae hari malavane haidun tape re, premanandana jivan pran .’ kavina haiyafat vedanasi‌kt svaro paththarane pan pigalave aeva chhe. samany rite priyapatranun martyu thatan aeno virah shuddh karunaman pariname chhe.parantu maranottar milanani aasha rahe to ae karunatmak viyog sharngar ganay chhe. prastut vijogani garabiman premasakhi shri sahajanandajina antardhan pachhina milanani abhilasha seve chhe aetale ae karunatmak viyog sharngar ganaya. *( premasakhi premananda- le. shri hariprasad thakkara.) prastut vijogani garabi sanpradayaman khub j janiti chhe . bhavarthah- padano praranbh thatan sanbhalanara sau chakit banya, aa keva svami chhe ? sanbharatani sathe j aemanan dilaman harsh vyape chhe. aa to premani parakashtha thai. shun smaran karavani sathe pratyaksh nihalata hashe ? vali, sanbharatani sathe j aanand thay chhe. aa te kevi vat ! II૧II kadino praranbh thatan saune khyal aavyo ke smaran sukh to kshananun. aanand kharo, pan nene aansuni dhara vahe tevo. svamine shrijinun smaran thatan, hakikatanun bhan thayun. tyan to sauna karatan aemanan hal bura thaya. virahagni angeangaman vyapi gayo. svami achetan bani gaya, pan aacharyashrini aagyathi kartavy thayela svami samayasar sabhan thai harismaranaman svamanane vale chhe. ae sundar murti shriharini, komala kamala sarikhan sundar nen, anupam latakan ladila lalanan sundar amart sarikhan vena. he sajani ! aa badhun sanbharatan marun manadun vyakula thay chhe. II૧ thi ૩II ae shobhanidhi sahajanandanan angoangani shobha nirakhi koti kamadevo lajjit thay chhe. mara harivaranun hasavun het vadhare tevun chhe. ae shrihari shvetanbar vastrone vadhu dharan karata. kyarek jarakashi vastro, to vali kyarek navabhati vastro. kyarek paghaman guchchh kalagi tora khosata ghani var gajara, bajubandh ane aganit fulaharathi sundar shobhata. aevi anupam sahajanandani murtine malava marun man tadapi rahyun chhe. ae murtiman nishadin man valagi rahyun chhe. mara kan ae maharajana madhuran vachan sanbhalava adhira banya chhe. premanandasvami kahe chhe ke mara haiyana har harivarane herava haiyu harakhi rahyun chhe II૪ thi ૯II

san. ૧૮૮૬n jeth sud ૧ne divase shrijimaharaj svadham padharya. pragat purushottam bhagavan shri svaminarayanana sannidhyaman animesh netre prabhuni rasarup murtino aasvad jene satat pandar varsh sudhi rasa-lobhi bhramarani pethe ananyabhave manyo hoy ae premasakhi pachhi ae rasik priyatam vina kevi rite rahi shake? prabhuna chirakalin viyogaman virahakula premanand sajalanetre shrijine sanbharya karata. aemanun vyathit haiyun hanmeshan gaya karatu – ‘pyare bisarat nahi bisare.’ ae priy murti to visari visarati nathi. aena san‌nidhy vina have palavar pan gothatun nathi. rahevay nahi ane sahevay nahi aevi ae sthiti hati. shrijimaharajana samipyaman galeli ae yadagar kshanona smaranaman j svami divaso tunka karata hata. aem karata san. ૧૮૮૭na kartiki samaiyano prasang aavyo. hajaro satsangio samaiya par vadatal aavya hata. svami pan ae prasange gadhadathi vadatal aavela . lagabhag pandarathi vis hajar satsangiono samuday malelo hato. aachary shri raghuviraji aa prasange mandir ane sabhamandap vachchena chokaman vachchovachch moti pat mukavi sabha bhari hati. shriharina antardhan thaya pachhino aa pahelo samaiyo hato. sau shokamagn hata. kon kone santvan aape? sabhaman dha. dhu. aachary maharajashriae premanand svamine kahyun: ‘ svami ! men sanbhalyun chhe ke jyarathi shrijimaharaj svadham padharya chhe tyarathi aape sarangi ke sitar sparsh suddhan nathi karyo, pan aaje sarve haribhaktone dilaso devani jarur chhe. ae tamara vina, svami ! kon kari shakashe? mate aemanan antaraman garabhayela dukhanun tame sangitana suro relavine bhan karavo. aemani antaratam vyathane vacha aapo to j aemanan haiya rudananan‌ ashruman bhinjaine halavan‌ thashe . aacharyashrina aagrahaman santo pan bhalya. sauae sathe maline svamine khub samajavya tyare shokamagn banela ae sant ubha thaya. shri raghuviraji maharaje aemanan hathaman sarangi aapi. bija aek sante sitar lidhi. shokamagn sabhaman palavaraman sarvana antarane mukharit karati sarangi radi uthi. svamiae kharajman haiyane ulechine gava mandyun: ‘sajani shriji mujane sanbharya re , haide harakh rahyo ubharaya. sajani shriji mujane sanbharya re .’ sabhaman sanbhalanar sau sajjad thai gaya ! aa te keva sant ? aena haiyana bhav keva? aamane to shriji sanbharata j haiye harsh vyape chhe. aa to premani parakashtha kahevay ! shrijini yad aavatan antaraman aanand ubharay chhe ane man darshan mate vyakula bane chhe. pan hay ! prabhu kyan? prabhuna viyogana vichare fari man radi uthe chhe. ‘nene aansuni dhara vahe re, virahe manadun vyakula thaya. ‘ viyogavasthaman priyatamanun smaran j virahana dukhani aek matr dava chhe.vi‌rahagni‌man balata hardayane aenathi kanik shata male chhe. aetale kavi fari shrijina svarupanun tatha aemanan ras sharngaranun smaran kari dukhi haiyane santvan aapata aagala gay chhe: ‘sundar murti shri maharajani re, sundar kamala sarikhan nena; sundar karatan latakan hathanan re, sundar amart sarakhan ven . shi kahun shobha angoang tani re, nirakhi laje kotik kama; hasata hasata het vadharata re, aeva sukhanidhi shri ghanashyama.’ pan ante to ae chhabine jova mate aemanun haiyun tadapya j kare chhe. ‘ae hari malavane haidun tape re...’ sabha aakhi premasakhi sathe virahashruna ghughavata variman vahi gai. aa prasange hajar rahel aek satsangiae pote najare nihaleli aa prasangani asarakarakatane shri ishvaradas masharuvalaae ‘premanand svamina jivan charitrani zhankhi ‘ namana lekhaman aa pramane aalekhi chhe: ‘temana sumadhur kanthamanthi nikalata chhatine fadi nakhanaran aa virahanan paloae, jem jem svamina surani gati vadhati gai tem tem tyan bethela ane ubhela shrotaonan harday chirava lagya ane ashruni dhara bey chakshu dvara vaheva lagi. hajar rahela aabal varddhajanomannathi koinan pan netro ashru sarya vagarana rahela nahi. ane chare pad purn karatan pahela j svami to nishchesht thaine dharani‌ upar dhali padya hata.૧(‘pemanand svamina jivanacharitrani zhankhi’ le. a. ni. ishvaradas masharuvala.) tyarabad aa garabio premasakhiae amadavad mandiraman pan prasangopat gai hati ane tyan aekatha thayela hajaro satsangionan netromanthi ashru pravah vahyo hato. aeni svanubhut nondh kavishvar dalapatarame lidhi chhe.૨(‘buddhiprakasha’ -૧૮૬૧ ni fail .) utpatti- samagr svashritaganane shokasagaraman dubadi deti sanvat ૧૮૮૬ni ghadi aavatan premasakhi premanandasvamini virahi avastha kevi sarjani hashe ! ae kahevun ashaky chhe. jeo harini haiyatiman pan aek kshanani alagata sahi n shakta, jem gay vina vachharadun zhure, pani vina machhalun tarafade ane ma vina balak valavale tem sveshtadev svadham sidhavatan premanandasvami virah, vyatha, ane vyakulataman zhuri zhurine achetan bani gaya. kahevay chhe ke tyare ae premamurtini aankhomanthi aansune badale lohi tapakyun hatun. ૧૪-૧૪ varshana sahajivanano sanyoganand manya pachhi viyogatmak jivan jivavun ketalun asahy hashe! ae to premanandasvamine j khabar hoy, ‘ghayal ki gat ghayal jane dujo n jane koi.‘ tem sarv sukhana nidhan sahajanand sidhavatan jivan jivavaman kone ras hoy ? sangitapriy premanandasvamiae to shriji svadham padharya pachhi potani sarangine abharaiae muki didhi. je sarangina sathavare shriharine sevya hata, raji karyan hata ane anek pado gayan hatan, chhatan tene tajatan var n lagi. tene thayun ke mara sangitano sur sari gayo. pran chalyo gayo. have hun shun vagadun! shun gaun! kone sanbhalavun ? ae to suranidhi sahajanandane shodhavaman svabhan bhuli gaya. pad rachana thanbhi gai, kalamani shahi sukai gai, samay jatan harijayanti ane kartiki punamano samaiyo ujavava sau vadatalaman aekatrit thaya. aacharyashri raghuviraji maharaje premanandasvamine pan svasarangi sathe aa samaiyaman samel thavani aagya kari. shriji dhamaman padharya pachhino aa pahelo j samaiyo hato. santo-bhaktonan hardayaman haju shrijino shok shamyo nahoto tyan to satsangani ‘ma’ aeva sannishth sadguru muktanandasvamiae viday lidhi. vicharo! jenan ma ane bapa- banne sidhavi gayan pachhi ae satsangi balakoni kevi dasha thai hashe ! jene khante khavadavya, range ramadya, aeva pran aadharani viyogani vat mari kalam lakhi shakti nathi. akkal kam nathi karati ke ae premi bhaktoni kevi dasha hashe! pan ae kalpanane tadrashy karato aek adbhut prasang aapane joiae. kavi dalapatarame najaro najar joine itihasane pane nondhel aa aek vastavik nari saty ghatana chhe. ae vadatalana samaiyaman vis hajarathi vadhare bhaktoni vishala sabhaman das futana uncha manch par premani parakashthaae pahonchela premanadasvamine besadi aadi aacharyashri raghuviraji maharaje kahyun ke, ‘svami! aaje tamare kirtano gavanan chhe.’ tyare svami kahe, ‘ maharaj dhamaman sidhavya pachhi men gavun, vagadavun chhodi didhun chhe. hun gai shakto nathi.’ ‘pan svami! tame gasho ke vagadasho ae kani indriyona sukh mate thodun chhe? aapanan kirtanothi to shrijini yad taji thashe. ane akhand smarti raheshe. mate svami aaje amari aagya chhe ke aa sarangi vagadi kirtano gai aa badha bhaktona antaraman ghumi raheli virahavedanane bahar khenchi lavo. ane sauna haiya halava karo.’ aem kahi aacharyashriae sarangi svamina hathaman muki aetale na chhutake sarangi lai suraman melavi svami shriharinan sansmarano yad karava lagya. jyan hari besata,podhata, uthata, sabha karata ane manaki feravata ae aadik prasango ane sthalone sanbhari virahatmak ragaman lanbadhale navarachit prastut kirtan sharu karyun. aavo ! aapane pan prastut padoman rahel sanyoga-viyogana aasvadane maniae.