Nirvikalp uttam ati, nishchay tav ghanashyama

san. ૧૮૮૧na‌ (sane ૧૮૨૫) kartik vad satamane shanivare shrijimaharaj suratana haribhakto tatha khas karine to parasi bhavuk bhakt aradeshar kotavala, temana bhai pirojshah, beharemandakhan, suratana navab aphzhuluddin uparant angrej nyayadhish aendarasan tem j be angrej amaladar mi. heran tatha mi. romare shrijimaharajane potane aangane tedine saro satkar karyo hato. surataman shri sahajanand svami nav divas rahya hata*( surat sonani murata. le. ishvaralal ichchharam desai. (par. ૧૩૫ )) ae vakhate surataman lalakarshnani vadiman shrijimaharajano mukam hato. aek divasani vat chhe. aradeshar kotavalana bangale padharamani karya bad sanje shrijimaharajani savari pachhi utare padharati hati. astachale dubata surajani lalimathi aakhuny aakash jane bhagavi kan‌thadhari dhyanamast banela koi alamast jogini jem mast gulabi zhanyaman zhabolai gayun hatun ! potana malaman pachha farela pan���iona mitha kalarav ane mandiroman thata aaratina ghantarav sandhyakalana prakartik saundaryane anokho op aapata hata. aradeshar kotavalane tyanthi pachha farata sadhuo sange shrihari mirazhana chakalamanthi pasar thata hata. te samaye mirazhana chakalaman ganakalaman kushala anek tavayafo raheti hati. samisandhyatane jayare sadhuna mandala sathe shrijini savari tyanthi chali jati hati tyare aa tavayafono dhiro pan madak sur vatavaranaman prasari rahyo hato. aa svar karnapradeshaman praveshata ganana abhyasi shravan karanarane stanbhavavane purata hata. aa savariman premanand svami pan sathe hata. sadhuo to natamastake chalya jata hata, parantu ae sangitanun madhury kalapremi ‘premasakhi‘ne atyant sparshi gayun. ae madhur ganano aalap aemanan manaman ghuntava lagyo. ae sundar svarachana aemanan kanaman shashvatsurana pran puri gai ! ane chalata chalata j teo sanbhalavaman aetala tallin thata gaya ke svabhavikapane temana pagala dhiman padava lagya ane sarv sadhuona mokhare chalanar premasakhi dhire dhire chhek pachhali harolaman aavi gaya. teni pan temane smarti rahi nahi. parantu shrijimaharajani chakor najar shani chuke ? aemane tarat dhodi pachhi vali, gayikana gayanaman mashagul banela ae sant pase jai temane dhandholya ane halava shabdoman mitho thapako aapata kahyun: “svami aa shun ! aaje tame kem pachhala rahi gaya !” maharajani marmik vaniman je takor hati te premasakhi pami gaya. sharamaine nichi najare aemane shriharini mafi magi. maharaje manakini lagam khenchata kahyun: “sangitane tamare vash karavanun hoy, svami ! sangit upar tamaro kabu hovo joiae. nahi ke sangitano tamara‌ upar !” maharaje pachhi premasakhine savariman santoni vachche rakhya ane aem karatan savari uta‌re‌ pahonchi.  ratre suta pahela shrijimaharaje premanand svamine bolavya ne pachhi shantithi potani pase besadine kahyun: “svami! tame joyun? manushyani prakarti aene kyanni kyan khenchi jay chhe! sangit kala beshak uttam chhe, pan ae kala jo prabhu prityarthe sadhavaman aave to j sarthak thaya; nahi to lokaranjan mate to ghana sadhe chhe, aenun muly nahivat‌ chhe. aeva sangitanun kshanik aakarshan pan santane bhaktiman vighnarup chhe. tamane aava lokaranjan arthe gavata gitaman palamatr mate pan je aakarshan thayun aena prayashchittarupe tamare chandrayan vrat karavun.”*( ‘premanand svamina jivanani zhankhi – shri ishvaralal ichchharam masharuvala (prastavana : shri premanand kavy – bhag ૧-૨.)) shrijina charanaman mastak muki premasakhi bolya: “bhale maharaja!” bije divase prata:kale nity vidhi patavi premanand svamiae shrijimaharaje aapelun vrat sharu karyun. pujapath kary bad svami muktamunina darshane gaya. tyan muktamuninan charanoman besi aemane gada‌gad kanthe yachana karatan kahyun : “ svami! aap to satsangini ma chho, mate karpa karine mane satsangana badhan niti niyamo tatha aekantik dharm angeni badhi j mukhy vatonun smaran karavo. jethi fari kyarey maharajani koi aagya svapnaman pan lopay nahi! sad‍guru muktanand svamiae to potani gyan saravani vaheti muki. premasakhiae aemanthi aachamane aachamane pan karava mandyun. aem be divas betha ne trije divase shrijimaharajani preranathi ae sarve vatone premanand svamiae aek j padaman prayoji sundar dohabandhavala padani rachana kari. rachana aevi manohar thai ke pratham pote j ae kanthasth kari lidhi. chothe divase shrihari pase aavine svami natamastake be hath jodi ubha ane potani navin kanthasth rachana bolava lagya: “nirvikalp uttam ati nishchay tav ghanashyama’ mahatmyagyanayukt bhakti tav . ai‌kantik sukhadhama“ aem bolata gaya ne darek kadiae maharajane sashtang dandavat‍ pranam karatan gaya. aeman rag, aalap ke vadyano khap rakhyo nahoto. parantu samagr sanpradayani sarvagrahi samajanano nichod nitarato hato. maharaj aekachitte sanbhalata hata. ‘nindat nahi koi devakun, bin khapato nahi khat, vimukh jivake vadanase, katha suni nahi jata’ kadiae kadiae maharaj dokun halavi sanma‌ti aapata rahya. ane pad purun thata ‘premanand kahe dhamamen , jao ni:shank jagajita’ aem kahi sashtang dandavat‍ pranam pura karya. ae j divase sandhya aarati pachhi dhun vagere thai gayan aetale maharaje ‘nirvikalp uttam ati nishchaya’ sharu karavyun. pachhi kahyun: “aa pad nityapathaman aajathi rakhiae chhiae, te sandhya aarati pachhi sau bolajo. je aa pad bole tene laghu shikshapatrino path karyo aem samajavun.” aaje pan sanpradayona mandiroman aarati ne dhun pachhi aa pad sashtang dandavat‍ sathe bolavani pratha yathavat‌ chali rahi chhe.